the worst thing is that you are right... I'm the "other guy".... I'm a nobody with a capital N... she probably wanted to use me like that others did... but I still feel she pulls to me with true love but her nature is holding her back someway. I think I will speak to her today and end this matter once and for all, fo good or ill, it doesnt matter now.... I will never be happy now... I lost all hope in love and I don't want to feel it again because it only causes sorrow and not happiness as advertized.... I'm the biggest fool on earth to believe that true love does exist... Gabi only wants Peters money and to live somewhere, she feels safe there knowing that Peter has money, has somwhere to live and so on... no matter that he does not seem to love her too much.... Gabi loves me no matter how she denies it, I think she can feel it too, but she choses the economic benefit rather than the greatest thing on earth... love...
I..I...jeeez...I'm outta words now...I just want to die already... drop dead here and now... no more pain for me.... but I think that won't happen and I'm not that suicidal type... sh!t, I should be....
