FreeFreddy. If you ever get in here again, and you read these replies people have posted in this thread, you will find that almost every active abandonia member have posted. Everyone really cares!
A lot of us envied you, when you first told of us Natalie. Non of us envy you now. But we will all be here if you want to talk, and we will be here to support you. Don't rush into irrational actions, it is not always the easy solutions that are the right ones. Think of your friends and family that needs you, and think of Natalies family, who must be as sad as you. Maybe you can find comfort in each other.
I really don't know what to say that might make you feel better, words will probably not be enough anyway. Scream, cry, yell, swear, walk into the nature for hours, run, destroy something, do whatever you need to do, just don't commit suicide or drink yourself into a deep hole, which I guarantee you won't work. When you have gotten a bit more distance to it, and you need to talk about it, turn to the ones you trust.
I hope you all the best, and I hope to see you here again.
Lars Aaberg.
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