This topic reminds me of my favorite quote from Bab5:
Ivanova: Why can't life be fair!
Marcus: I take quiet comfort from the fact that life isn't fair, because it means that I do not deserve the terrible things that have happened to me.
Horrible elements from my life:
I had to wait until my mid twenties for any woman to consider me as a potential partner in a relationship. I still have doubts about love at first sight, but it happened to me anyways, and none of the women saw me as more than a friend. At the time I felt absolutely miserable. I am still uncertain how I broke that long streak, but my wife tells me I should be glad that I had no previous entanglements, and I choose to take her at her word, not that she would know as I am the only person she ever took a romantic interest in.
I have the wrong experience for my education. I lack the experience for the engineering field and few organizations hire forklift drivers with a university education. Fortunately, I get enough work to pay my bills, and my education might be in demand for the teaching field; although, that requires going back to university, again.
In case I have not borrowed enough trouble, I am fleshing out a storyline that is bouncing through the back of my head, so I can add failed science fiction author to my list of non-accomplishments. This may be harder than I thought, at first, as one of my friends keeps asking for the next section, so she can find out what happens next. She won't accept laziness as an excuse, so I strive onwards.
Despite the crap that I feel that I am wading through as I slog through life, and despite bouts of melancholy, I can still see the myriad things that tell me my life is worth living, so I am happier than I have any right to be.
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