[Mighty Midget]

Yeah, I need a change. Well, travels are out coz I haven't got the money to get anywhere, hardly have the money for the bus ticket here. I have been accepted into this back-to-work program but I'll move away from here shortly so I won't have a full 5 days a week program until I get settled at the new place. About a hobby, well, playing has pretty much been all I have ever done but I have to leave that for quite some time. Another thing is I honestly have no idea what that hobby can be seeing I can't afford a hobby unless it's absolutely free and those old ideas are still there that I have to deny myself what I want to do, I'm still telling myself I'm not interested coz I've been told I'm not interested so I do what I've always done, pushing it all out of my memory. It's totally crazy but that's how it is. Someone else used the word brainwashing to describe what it was like to grow up in our family and there are a lot of ideas I need to get rid of and a lot of daring to accept having my own ideas.