[Mighty Midget]

First go edited out coz it seems to me my approach has been and still is all wrong.

EDIT: Ok, this is a new thought (as far as I can remember anyway) and perhaps what Playbahnosh and the others have been trying to tell me all along. Perhaps the reason why it's so hard to get it into my skull is just that I'm trying to get it into my skull. I grew up on the Gospel that "theory is all you need to understand and see. Read and get all the facts and you will succeed" and "of course" I have seen and still (I have to admit) see any solution as something to read and study to get, something to contemplate, think about, ponder and if a problem didn't go away always being told I didn't think hard enough. Never try before you have thought it through. Anyway, What happened earlier today, in the morning, I remembered I actually always wanted to learn how to fly an r/c chopper and I joined a forum asking around for tips on how to get started. I chatted with my mate at the hospital and I remembered he was an eager r/c pilot when he was young. We talked a bit about r/c flying in general and now I just have to admit that a grain of "gloom and doom" went away for a few moments and there is something new here I'm afraid to lose. At least I know for the moment I do have a genuine interest that is mine.

EDIT Goddamn! I know how I'm beginning to see this as yet another thing to ponder instead of actually doing it.

EDIT: Play: I have read your reply but I think I'll need to read it again from a diffferent approach before I can fully appreciate it.